I'm bitched....

Hmm, no use mourning...

I seriously need to keep a check on my emotions. So I shall end my week with this blog entry. A conclusion to what I have done and what I will do. So the moment it ends I have to face a new day.

So I have been a SOn of a bitch, mother fucking bastard and lowlife scum.

And i have already apologised for what I have done. And may god please help me, if he doesn't I would only have myself to blame. I dont blame her for scolding me a motherfucking......, cause I deserved it. I want it to end soon whether in the end she forgives me or she totally throw me out of her life. Cause I'm tired, damn tired.

But seriously I hate unhappy endings.

THis is a song from Boyz II men which I think comes closest to what I'm feeling. But w/o the love.

Boyz II Men-On Bended Knee

Darlin' I can't explain
Where did we lose our way
Girl it's drivin' me insane
And I know
I just need one more chance
To prove my love to you
If you come back to me
I'll guarantee
That I'll never let you go

Chorus:
Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how you get things back
The way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee

So many nights I dream of you
Holding my pillow tight
I know I don't need to be alone
When I open up my eyes
To face reality
Every moment without you
It seems like eternity
I'm begging you, begging you come back to me

Chorus
Gonna swallow my pride
Say I'm sorry
Stop pointing fingers the blame is on me
I want a new life
And I want it with you
If you feel the same
Don't ever let it go
You gotta believe in the spirit of love
It can heal all things
We won't hurt any more
No I don't believe our love's terminal
I'm down on my knees begging you please
Come home

Chorus
Wanna build a new life
Just you and me
Gonna make you my wife
Raise a family