Ideas.. ideas.. ideas...

So today, Me and Jul were toying with the idEA, of opening an online store which sells cookies, pineapple tarts and those pastries plus Sarah mother's too. I found it to be quite feasible! because the startup cost is low. And sarah is willing to design the webpage. But the problem is building a business plan. and Jul throw everything at me. I dont know why I think it is feasible , maybe because I already have everything you need to start it straight away. Maybe not.... In a months time or 2? But for now I am worried I can't get a high paying job!

Ashley ask me sincerely whether I want to convert to full time. Because if I want she would promote me to Retail Supervisor. which sounds nice but the pay doesn't reflect it. I mean I am flattered, considering I have no job experience nothing, it would look impressive on my resume. But how far would it help in my career as a research scientist, I do not know. I have to ask Dad.
But on the sidenote, I am really impressed with myself, not because I got the job but more of Ya! I am really capable, you know what I mean. Cause although I am quite confident of my abilities but I dont know the extent of it. till now, I realised that I am a very fast learner, I pick things up very quickly. I have the ability to make people see that I am good. Well thats a start, I am sure there are more in time to come. But seriously the pay is damn low! I am still considering. Man this is stressful.

On another totally different matter, here is a song for all you out there who are torn between love and carreer. (not me! :) The lyrics are really meaningful
. Have fun.



How to Deal

by Frankie J.
album: The One (2005)


Sometimes a man has to choose
And do something he doesn't wanna do.
Do I live my life with you as my wife
Or do I go on and pursue my lifetime dream?
I gotta do this for me,
Cuz if I don't I'll probably regret it,
But if I do I'll probably regret it,
How do I cope?
[Chorus:]
How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it?
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career?
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do,
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad,
So how do I live...how do I deal without you?
It's killing me to know
That your heart's with me,
But you're with him cause I chose
To be in this industry,
Money, shows, and hoes come along with luxury and Fame****
Is all you see when you think about me
But this is the life that I was given,
So I have to live it to the fullest
But how do I deal in the meantime.......... without you?
[Chorus:]
How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it?
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career?
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do,
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad,
So how do I live...how do I deal without you?
How do you deal when you can't be with
the one you love but the one you love is
with somebody else?
(I don't know,I don't know)
What do you do when you know she don't love him
but she love me but she cant stand lovin' you faraway?
I guess i just have to deal with it
you just deal with it, deal with it,
(I dont wanna have to live with it)
you just deal with it, deal with it,
(no,no,no)
you just deal with it, deal with it,
(I dont want nobody else alovin' you)
you just deal with it, deal with it,
(I dont nobody else alovin' me)
[Chorus:]
How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it?
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career?
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do,
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad,
So how do I live...how do I deal without you?
How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it?.....