I finally understand

昨 天出去了一天，我终于相通了。
你是为了寻找幸福才离开我。
I finally understand why u leave me.
cause you found a better choice.
I went around walking around town yesterday, i saw a lot of couples walking on the street. Loving dovey, especially in the cinema, after watching enchanted.
I think, why some people can stay so long with each other while some like me and you can't.
The answer is because some chose to believe that the other half is the one for them, like me.
And some chose to believe that the they are still searching for the other half.
Of course its not your fault that you belong to Cat 2 and I belong in Cat 1. Its nobody fault.
I put myself in your shoes, what if some pretty kind girl would come along and tell me that she likes me. Would I just ditch you and be with her? Of course, I should have known from your point of view is you would, any rational person would do that. everyone is selfish, they would always want the best for themseleves. Including me also.
But sometimes, as they say love is blind. I can ignore the whole world and still think you are the prettiest girl on the whole planet. I guess you are not in love with me also which result in such a grave error. Its all my wishful thinking. I guess initially pushing all the blame for the failure was bad of me also, cause its easier to hate you for all the things you have done to me than to understand why you do it.

BUT that doesnt mean i approve or forgive you for doing this to me. I still hate you for tearing up my heart but I dun hate you that much tats all. Wat you have done to me will not heal with time. It will only dilute it, but the pain will always be there, so next time if you see me on the streets please dont call out to me or come and acknowledge me, cause you will hurt me again.
I still think of you every day, just lesser and lesser I hope.
Its not that I dont want to be friends with you just that that you will always be hurting me if I continue to be friends with you. I am not so generous, I am sorry that I am selfish, but please understand.






-in the process of letting you go-