I have a dream........

I have realised that I go out very little, I tend to stay at home and BUM, butt sticking at home, mommys boy or whatever u call it. Well I should have made myself a promised that I would go out often. But I do not like, crowded places, + who would want ot go with me? There are plenty of places to go in Singapore if u know where and the $. Muz find a buddy to go out with me more often.

I totally give it up to that girl, I really do not know what to do, I am at a freaking lost. Girls r allowed to be immature but this is imbecille, Cold war is 3 days goingf stong.

I'm really tired......


Weelee is a jerk.


Thanks jie Yu for conforting me yesterday with that "heart warming " message, Soobb........ haaha

My previous blog is a mistake,

i took back my words from my last entry, cause, after a day of thinkin and retless night, i just sort of tot it through, so here is how i am gg to write to her if i get to speak to her.

dear Natara Khor,
If u r reading this , I hope by the time u get to read this u have already calm down, I really dont know why u r ignoring me all of a sudden, but i have to let u know that i really like u as a friend, and by ignoring me i really dont know what u r up to. Even though I might not appear all lost and dellusional infront of you. But inside I feel very sad, ya know like, what the hell did I done wrong. The point is I'm not angry at u because u ignore me but more of like puzzled, why r u ignoring me all of a sudden. Of course , I was quite pissed of at 1st of course, but slowly as I camed down i think that maybe I did say something wrong somewhere at some point of time, but no matter what, I still regard u as my friend. I will also take an opportunity to say that I do have feelings for you, rem I said that I have feeelings for someone, when asked me? Actually that person was you. But things were not gg well as expected, I think that u r not interested in developing a relationship with me, so ya. Plus when i ask u whether u wan to catch a movie with me, u rejected me straight, and even say that u do not want to watch any movies in April,. I supposed that is a hint that i shouldt ask u out. Anyway this is so beside the point, I really wish things were back to normal< I will keep trying to speak to u, show concern, in hope that things will become better, its okay that u dont reply me, cause i believe that when its time, u will reply me, but for now, let things as it be, I might need to cool down a little bit.
And although I hate to admit it, but it really seems like we can only be friends, because we have nothing to talk about, rem the time where i waited for u and we took bus home, i was the one doing the talking, and u jus kept looking away, I had this impression that u do not want to be in this conversation with me, I just kept forcing myself to talk nonsense, yup, so in this case, zI prefer to keep u as a friend although how i do wish to make u my gf, but things seem imposible, especially if i am the only one which is willing, so yup, dont be alarm girl if u read this, FRIENDS 4eva.


P.S: I think u r really pretty and u r very sweet, hope that u can find the guy of your dreams, if can give me one more chance, Ok, cheers.




Cheers Weelee




Yup, this is how the letter will read. Adios

Fuck Tub

i just realise fuck tub i am, i'm like a screwer, literally, screw thhings up, but it is always relationships than will be screwed. God, I hate myself, I am good in so many stuff except this kind of stuff. Any way, Fuck , like it was my fault. So what if your uncle is a datuk, big fuck ar. Nt human ar? I bet I am more smarter, good looking, and fitter than him, just that i am not as rich as him, so what? Anyway, tat is beside then point, what do u mean by I cannot come and find u if your uncle is a datuk, means what, i am too low class to even speak to u what the fuck? Sorry this is getting a bit RA. But let me vent my anger 1st. plus when u said that what for i come find u , my blood boiled, so I replied did I ever say I will come and look for u? CCB. Eat that bitch, u r even worse than Sam ... FUCK FUCK FUCK U.......... I'm so pissed off. I just realise how stupid that i think u r a nice girl, i think u r a spoilt, imature brat. KNN. Fuck U .

Its been a long time... I found u .. u have not known. But still I found u... I wish u r leading a bliss life now, will I meet u agn? Who knows. I really hope to meet u in NUS. Or something. To finish where i left off. if there is any stuff left...


on another matter, this is starting to get embarassing, do I even have the zi ge to go after any girl, i start to wonder. I wonder the part about insecurity and unstable was she refering about me. Am i really that unreliable? Or does she doubt me? I dont like to think, u know, especially about such matters, after the "sam" incident , i have had enough, to put my self through another emo roller coster ride, once bitten twice shy, maybe thats why i seem unsincere? I dont know lah. Why must everything be so complicated? It seems like e verything i work for is redundant.


If Mr Cupid is seeing this, please give me that special one. ya lar.

Shell care 2006

I had a very fun and enjoyable night,

not as bad as expected but still quite good!

lets see, natara was very pretty tonight.

make up really do wonders.

i show u a pic.

Accountant

I am an accountant! Yahoo! Its so great to be recognised.

tata.. I made new friends

I made some new friends yesterday, called natara and lee ling. Thats their names I think. haha, they talk to me! I guess either 1 of them is interestred in me. I'm hoping it is natara, cause she looks quite sweet.
She ke xiao come and put file near me and that she suddenly ask how old am I haha, it was so funny, but than again do I sound so desperate, Everygirl I meet and i want to go steady with her!!! What is happening to me! I must not become something I detest, a desperado...
dear!!!!!!!!!