A wonderful DOA

Let's start from 2 days before, Sharon found me a job as a retail assistanant at Goldheart jewellary. 1750 basic, plus commision and its a 5 day week. I was like WOW! thats alot! And it is at CWP! I'm so going to get this job!

The day before, Zaneta msg me alot of 'funny' things which I don't even know why was I replying to ! I must be mad! next day I msg her to stop messaging me cause I don't like her. I felt mean, but SOME girl also did that to me, and I supposed that it is gonna be like a revenge, but I felt really bad.

Yesterday, Sean came down to borrow stuff. Apparently he was called an ASSHOLE by SOME girl. For something. We decided that we shall go drinking someday and talk about it. I supposed that it would be fun.




Today me and Yh went to see DOA, the movie was COOL! haha.
Holly valence was CHIO! and the rest of the Babes were like HOT! Real HOT! Although the story line was crap, but it more than make up for it with it's wonderful fight scenes and steamy scenes! The one scene that is so funny. The father thought that her daughter was a Lesbian! That part was so funny! Anyway , its a COOL movie!














I still believe in ...........!

A new Hairstyle.

Today I went to Thomas and guys for a haircut. It was very, very good! The guys there are so god damn style. I was like whoa! Initially I wanted to go REDS cause they got promotion. But in the end I stick with my original plan. So I went in , I think business was bad. Cause alot of the stylist are very zuo bo lan. Than they ask me what I want to cut. I said I don't have a clue and whether they can give me any suggestion. Than they gave a suggestion that was not a suggestion. haha. They say : Do you want to have your have your hair cut by our senior stylist? For 45. I just say yesh! Cause I cant be bothered. So I just sat there and I was like waiting in anticipation for magic to happen. Haha in the end the effect was splendid! I just love my new hairstyle. Cant wait to go to work tommorow to show my new hair do!



A new beggining.

Scary and Interesting

Today i met a person called Rusti, he came from PS MJ to help out at our store. In the end we have short of 28 dollars in our cashierbox. I suspect it was him but no proof lol wat to do.
I think that Sharon trust him too much. She ar problem, always talk on the phone, don't know what to do with her.

At 11pm I met my secondary class mates down stairs they were having a BBQ. Damn last minute. It was nice seeing them!

But I missed someone very much. I have no one to sms, to call. I feel so sorry for myself. What a dumb fuck.






Sorely missed.

Lazy day

The day started very badly, I was depressed and sad. Sharon kept asking why u so sad, I can't tell her cause I will feel very very sad and may cry! Xiao. No way I will do that, she tried to make me laugh for almost 1/2 a day. But I didn't, juz don't feel like smiling. Which by the way is not myself. Later as the day progressed my mood got a teeny weeny bit better, because sharon was damn funny and comical. I just sat at the counter listening to BoyzIImen and Frankie J who are like one of my favorite artist this month. Listening to their soulful singing. Watching pretty girls wheez past and I was like there are 1 million girls out there, should I sit here like a dumb fool and wait for something that I think is impossible? Nah, lesson learnt, you should not out too much feelings into a relationship even before it started cause you will end up like a sick, dumb fuck if it goes the wrong way. basically like me, but who cares! Just follow your heart.

A nice story to share. Haha.

Like Paris Hilton's single, the girl whom you a few months ago kept creeping into your mind on repeat. Thing is that you don't even listen to pop, so how the hell did that song, like her, sneak in there making you hum along. Every moment you're awake, the thoughts somehow seems to return to something related to her.
In her company, you seem to lose sense of time and space when you're usually quite grounded and aware of your surroundings. You stayed out with her until 5 am when the self imposed curfew was originally midnight because you had to wake up at 7 the next day to attend class. You could spend an entire day just watching her without getting bored for even a moment. Walking down Orchard on a crowded Sunday, the only thing you noticed is that strand of hair that hung down the side of her face. You remember the color of her contacts on the second day you met when you usually have trouble remembering people's faces after meeting them for a week. There isn't anything you wouldn't do for this girl. No thought to spending $300 on something for her when you only have $9.52 in the bank and an e-z link card.
She is gorgeous and stunningly beautiful, but that isn't why you're interested and totally infatuated. You were more excited seeing that sliver of skin between her jeans and tank top than any porn sites you "stumbled" across. You'd give anything to be alone with her for a night in a hotel room, but it's more than that. It's that feeling somewhere between your chest and stomach that makes you want to see her day in and day out. She's the one that, even with a few moments a day or a short chat on the phone, could make you smile when your usual facial expression is neutral.
You write and rewrite every simple SMS with such vigor that if you did the same with your papers you'd be sure to graduate with highest honors and distinction. Every reply message is anticipated with much excitement and then dissected and analysed in such a detailed manner that Mindef would call you up to decode secrets for them. When you think of her, your stomach does flip flops and your hands feel like they're dripping water. The number of hits on her blog in a day from you alone would rival the clicks on Google and Yahoo combined. Every time her MSN signs on, you are tempted more than an alcoholic let loose in the Tiger Beer brewery. But she doesn't know.
Then it hits you like the smell of durians. Maybe you did or said something that scared her away, or maybe you're a pessimist, or maybe you found out she has a boyfriend. He doesn't appreciate her and doesn't have any redeeming qualities, while you have 84, even during a hangover. But you're too nice to disturb her happiness, so you try to give some space. You can only hope for a second chance with her, to learn from the mistakes you made. Either way, your chances with her aren't what you thought they were. So you're forced to write an article that says how you really feel, which could be taken the wrong way.
So cut this out and give it to her, see what happens and then move on without the regret of not trying enough. (Tell me how it goes)

Nice article! Enjoy it Adios!


It's still not to late to turn back.

The Lake House

A story of Two People In Love, Who haven't even met.

Dr. Kate Foster has finnaly found romance. trouble is, it's a long distance relationship. She's in downtown Chigago and he's in a remote lakeside suburb. And there's more: She's in 2006. He's in 2004.

Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock teams up for the 1st time since Speed for this heart-lifting story of a love which transcends time. It begins when Kate moves out of her visually stunning lake house and leaves a note for the next tenant, architet Alex Whyler. They begin a correspondence and soon came to realize that they are meant for each other..... and that , somehow , they live 2 years apart. Can they ever meet? What would happen if they tried? Magical and emotionally rich, The lake house is a love story for 2004, for 2006, for all times.


Just finish watching lake house. It is a very good movie I would have to say, coming from a mouth of a person who leans towards sci-fi and testorone.

The 1st part of the movie where they write to each other was so sweet and hilarious at the same time. Cause they were struggling to believe that they were 2 years apart and at the same time falling head over heels with each other. They showed care and concern for each other even though they can't be together which is what love is all about.

One thing that Sandra Bullock said in the movie. If there is only anything.... 1 thing that I can do for you... I will do it. Or something like that. To warn him of his father passing away and to pass him a memoir of his dad which was not supposed to be publish in his time.

1 scene that also deserves to be mentioned was Kate waiting at the restaurant. It was a long wait as they promised to meet each other on that particular day. But Alex didint show up. She decided that they were not meant to be together and decides to give up and ask Alex not to write to her anymore.. But our dear Alex decided to wait, he waited and waited, writing letters after letters but Kate did not reply. My thoughts: It was the girl that gave him up, why the bloody hell should he wait? Why should he have to torture himself? Cause he knows that the girl is the one that he is waiting for. Now if the same question applies to me, would I wait. The answer is YES. Cause i know that she is the one, just that I made a serious mistake. And that I am waiting. I believe that 1 day it wil happen. You can't just lose faith in believing, to lose faith means to give up, to give up means you are letting it fly away. Believing gives you hope, even though it may or may not come true. But it gives you the strength to carry on. To keep on waiting. But that doesn't mean I am so desperate for the forgiveness. If someone is unwilling, I would rather eat dung.

So to conclude. It is defintely a good movie Should catch it with your special ones so that you will treasure each other more.





I still believe in love.....

I can't sleep cause I am angry

I am done with you.

why do i have to torture myself just for your forgiveness. Just because of a blog and you created a big mess out of this. Ya its my fault for viewing your blog but does it really matter? If your stupid, fuckin blog is more important than me. Than sam, u can go fly kite and get married to your blog or something.

At this moment i can't care less. I am a nice guy but the way you are treating me, I have no choice but to become mean. And seriously it doesn't matter cause i don't give a damn.

Oh and sam if you are reading this, please take my advice, if your are not ready for a relation, please please dont go around dropping hints to the guy cause u know u are gonna screw the guys life pretty bad.

I will eat back my words, you will not be my stupid girl anymore and vice versa.

oh and sam there is 1 thing I would like to thank u for, its for the past 1 1/2 month, it was a joy meeting you but so sorry it had to end this way.


Goodbye Samantha, you are out of my life.

I'm bitched....

Hmm, no use mourning...

I seriously need to keep a check on my emotions. So I shall end my week with this blog entry. A conclusion to what I have done and what I will do. So the moment it ends I have to face a new day.

So I have been a SOn of a bitch, mother fucking bastard and lowlife scum.

And i have already apologised for what I have done. And may god please help me, if he doesn't I would only have myself to blame. I dont blame her for scolding me a motherfucking......, cause I deserved it. I want it to end soon whether in the end she forgives me or she totally throw me out of her life. Cause I'm tired, damn tired.

But seriously I hate unhappy endings.

THis is a song from Boyz II men which I think comes closest to what I'm feeling. But w/o the love.

Boyz II Men-On Bended Knee

Darlin' I can't explain
Where did we lose our way
Girl it's drivin' me insane
And I know
I just need one more chance
To prove my love to you
If you come back to me
I'll guarantee
That I'll never let you go

Chorus:
Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how you get things back
The way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee

So many nights I dream of you
Holding my pillow tight
I know I don't need to be alone
When I open up my eyes
To face reality
Every moment without you
It seems like eternity
I'm begging you, begging you come back to me

Chorus
Gonna swallow my pride
Say I'm sorry
Stop pointing fingers the blame is on me
I want a new life
And I want it with you
If you feel the same
Don't ever let it go
You gotta believe in the spirit of love
It can heal all things
We won't hurt any more
No I don't believe our love's terminal
I'm down on my knees begging you please
Come home

Chorus
Wanna build a new life
Just you and me
Gonna make you my wife
Raise a family

Another miserable day

Why do i even bother waking up? would't it be better if I keep on sleeping. And wake up to find all this is a bloody dream and I'm just on my 1st day of work at MJ.

Man, I'm too tired to think, brains not functioning well. the nxt best thing that takes over is my emo which did not totally help at all. So perhaps a brain transplant would help.

in another few minutes time I will need to head back to camp for some ORD talk. Which I seriously am thinking of NOT going, but I have already promised dinseh to do so. So ya.

So much for wallowing in self piety. I remember the last time I did that it nearly ended with me wallowing in a puddle of blood. MY blood to be exact. Nearly got bang down by a car.

Hopefully afternoon it will be sunny and i will go to the swimming pool to drown myself. (Just joking.) To cool myself ya know.




I hate my self for being so Emo.

How to lose a girl in 1 hour

The guide on : How to lose a girl in 1 hour. In 3 easy steps.

1. verbally abuse the girl for nothing.
2. say that everything was because of her.
3. take it as a joke the following day.

Confirm gurantee plus chop and seal. Cause i did that. And it works
and i end up with a sleepless night marvelling at my own stupidty
and a bitterness that seeps into the very depth of my soul for the
earlier part of the morning and tears fighting to get up of my
souless eyes. I should get MORE than that cause at this moment
getting strike by lightning or knock down by a car would seem like
a better situitaion that i got myself entangled in.


To sam,
If you're reading this, I'm SORRY. I know sorry now is a
little bit to late. I have been a bastard, a jerk, a villian etc,
and that any words that can be use to describe me in this context
is appropriate. I know that i have hurt your feelings real bad and
its all my freakin fault. I have really learnt my mistake and i
promise you that i will not make the same mistake ever again and i
swear if I ever do that I would be strike by lightning. So please
give me one more chance and please dont dont ever say it doesn't
matters. Cause it DOES to me, I would rather you be angry at me
then you telling me that you dont care. I will go through mountains
and seas to get what you want. But i just want to hear you forgive
me personally than go thorugh Jul. I haven't forgive myself yet
until you do. So until than i will be a sinner. So please forgive
me.

From the stupidest boy on the planet.

The day after i gone crazy.

Seems like i went crazy last night. Dont know whats wrong. Cause of everything. Everything doesn't seem right.

now going out with Ying heng. So not bad. haha

Everything started going downhill after yh took his MC. 1 pathetic day. Than at least i got the movies to look forward to. But Sharon had to call me and tell me that i had to come back cause she need to take urgent leave. Cause her husbands sick. Poor thing. I had to rush down at 3pm. Took a cab.

Now i'm here. Haha! telling all this bullshit. I'm suddenly numb cause of something. haha!

Tuesday Blues: Part 1

Hope today will be a good day.



To the person whom i hope might mentally be able to read this: I will wait cause you are worth waiting for.

my Jap name

just chance upon a website which translates your name into jap. haha mine is called Fujiwara Taiki. which means Wisternia fields, large radience. Dont know what that means.

Just finish updating most of my pals blogs.

Brave New World

Starting a realtionship is so exciting yet so frightful. Who will dare take the 1st step? For fear of rejection, disappointment and ultimately, seperation. If u are one of the lucky people out there to be in a relationship, god bless u ppl.
I am scared. Very scared. Stupid girl is just so making me scared.

Should i just turn my head and walk out unscathed or should i plunge head in as the stars lay untold?

Ha, that's mine quote.

I don't know what is right anymore. I only know that I will miss her. Will time wash that away?
I hope not. Cause if it will, that means it can go both ways. I will slowly bow out of her life and dissapear into a tiny box called "memories".

While I know we like each other, but how long will this last before the fire runs out?
She's so busy, has her commitments, where does that leaves me?
I tried to take initiative, she's stopping me. How much longer can this go on?
If you're reading this right now girl, I ONLY need 1 of your hours each week. Is that too much to ask for?


~Only you can answer my doubts, soothe my uneasiness, only here that i can express myself~

The start of something new.

Man, this is the don't know how many blogs i have started... Hopefully this is the start of something new. Just like troy and gabriella. For you who dont know, they are the main cast from The High School Musical. Gabriella is especially pretty. :)

Stupid girl doesnt know i found her blog yet.

I'm not dumb u know.

God bless the person who invented the search function!

She called me the skinny twig. Stupid girl.
Tats why i called my blog the stickz boy. And no 10x to her!




I'll always be waiting....