Been a long time since I blog, seriously, i should write more........
Writing is an enjoyable thing, I think, being able to express one self through writing is a fine art.
Lets see, wat has happen this week. let me see, it is into the 3rd week of our r/s. Everything is gg fine, and I found myself growing fonder and fonder of her. She juz totally rocks. She doesnt mind our diferences like, shes working, and I am studying. Al

Also I had a dream last night, I dreamt that dear suddenly died for some unknown reason and I cried and cried and I drank beer, I got beaten up by punks. But I don't care, I just want to forget about her dying.......... It was so real, when I woke up, my pillow was wet. She is tat impt to me I guess.......



today i met the bosses bosses, sunny made a joke abt Boss sini, cold rite...... anyway, when godwin was gone elsie told me, michelle and audrey tellinf us that we shd engage ppl more often. to talk more, i admit I was abit quite. But that was because they were talking about such stuff as their business staff and i WAS just overwhelmed, and just kept quiet and try to absorb at least 1% tat would make sense to me., Oh well another day passed. and i bought a really nice chocalate. Organic.,,,,,,, MMMMmmmm, muz go try..... :)

What do you want/

haben blog for quite a few days already, nothing major happened, happen happen for JY's bday on sat. was quite fun,alot of ppl. see ppl i haben seen in a long time, not my clas mates though, ppl like febri, jane, kok leong, etc etc etc. like thos SC, dont know which generation wan.
than meant yong siang, the guy they always tok abt, he damn funny, very likeable, the type that u see the face than wan t o laugh that kind. drank a bit of baileys( a very creamy liquer) but not my type of drink.

And I confide in Jieyu than I dun feel confident in my relationship. He told me, I should give it a try. He say it's so hard to find someone who loves u and u love her back. I should give myself a chance and her a chance.

when is my pharmacy letter gg to come, damn NUS lar, so long.
KNN, CCB for NUS.

I'm in love

I finally accepted the fact that I am in a relationship. I talk to Melody last nite, I told her that we r moving too fast, and I dont know how long this will last, it seems she also acccepted the fact that we might not be together for long. haha! and it feels better knowing that she isnt possesive. Not the kind that after1 day, than she already planned how many babies are we gg to have. pHEW.......
I also said that about my finances problem..... ( just to make sure she knows that I am not filthy rich) and in the hope that this will be the reason she used to ditch me. She said that she know that I am not rich and that she also needs to pay for out dates. I was like touched, because it was such a simple gesture that she knows that I need to save up for uni. but than agn we r on our honey moon period and so of course she has to qian jiu me lar. But I was honestly touched.
I shall not go too much into details. yup. so till nxt time.

Good riddence......

I met up with Yh yesterday to thrash all my shit out. We had a hilarious laugh about it.
Melody aside, he talk about how I use to go crazy about yvonne, wahlao, I felt so embaressed to the MAX man. haha, I didnt realise that I was so dumb, I mean I KNEW, just that coming from the mouth of my good friends just sound even stupider. He stilled remind me that I refuse to speak to him cause he was too friendly to yvonne, so funny, yes I am a bastard, but it was a good laugh anyway! :)


Anyway, I have decided to come to a conclusion that I will give myself a chance to like her, and give her a chance to "charm" me.

So now she is my darling Melody, I guess, for now . Haha. gross. ;)






U mean so much to me, that I want to hold you tight and never let go........

the end of the world

Oh god someone save me....
I dont know how I ended up like that, it was supposed to be a normal outing, and ended up with a gf.
Shit, I must say, it feels really nice to have someone cuddle up to u, hold your hand, kiss me, shower me with affection. But some how it doesnt feel rite. My heart just isnt there. I already have doubts about the relationship.

should I give it a chance to work. Technically, i was not lying when I say i got feelings for her. ya, i wanna screw your pussy is a feeling. But not the heart. my cok is tinking. So WTF.

I am fucking screwed, this is not wat I asked for , I want my old life back. My really old life. Of single, noob life. It is more peaceful........

Now she msges me alot of stuff, like "dar, dar" makes my skin crawl but, I am scared. its too fast. She just hold my hand suddenly. i have o time to react. shit lar. I am lost.







Sometimes I think I am too good for my own liking.