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You are done for..

Fine. Since u already decided than theres nothing I can do.
No matter how i tried, u just will not listen.

I am so tired.
I do not wish to think.
I do not have the energy to go on.
U brought me so much memories.
But also so much pain.

After all tat i have done.
I am still back at one.
So from now on, i will force myself to erase all memories of you.
I will supress any urges to call you or MSN you.
You do not exist.

All the reasons you gave me was bullshit and you know deep down you still love me alot. And i dun know wat reasons you have. But I am darn sure tat we are meant to be together. So I shall 4get you.

灯打开了也无法照亮黑夜
窗关上了心还被风吹的很冷
电话响着那在另一端却空荡荡的
心久久都怀念那个夏天
枕头轻轻的亲吻我的侧脸
梦始终在放映你微笑的画面
想念和你第一次牵着手的情人节
却随着你离去从此没了
我抱着孤单一个人睡
如果还能遇见不要再后退
想你会在哪一条街
听哪段音乐吻着谁的脸
我抱着回忆一个人睡
不愿看见自己哭红了双眼
我的心还留在里面
爱却越走越远我爱你那天
爱却越走越远 oh~ no~
谁说过时间总是残忍
谁又能看见我多心疼
还不能习惯我一个人
要你在身边走幸福的路
就算会结束我的爱还继续付出
oh~wo~

我真的,真的不知道

我不知道从几时，我发现自从上次，我从来没有过开心的一天，每天都要带这强颜欢
笑，所以朋友家人才不会担心。
我真的好累。没有你，我不知道该怎么样走。

我真希望刚才在地铁，希望时间停止，希望地铁一直走下去，永远不要停。
虽然我可能被你骂，被你讨厌，可是我就是这么傻。

我只希望在你身边多留一会儿，作你的守护天使，让你不被别人欺负。
只是在我保护的当儿， 虽然我多么想抱你，多么想哭着对你说，：“我还是爱你！”。

我只希望在你身边多留一会儿，作你的守护天使，让你不被别人欺负。
只是在我保护的当儿， 虽然我多么想抱你，多么想哭着对你说，：“我还是爱你！”。
我还是把眼泪强忍下去， 当做没事。
因为我不想让你有压力，我不想强迫你，更不想伤害。
刀已经拿在手了，没办法受手，只好向自己狂插。
所以我真的好累，全身是伤的我，已经死了差不多了。

当世界 不知不觉的变了
有时候 我怀念以前的我
作的梦 虽然远远的
想像是 一种快乐
拥有了 同时也失去什么
而眷恋 原来会带来软弱
你让我再无力承受
心开始曲折
我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么
我不想舍得 不想懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
互相照顾就是 幸福的
当世界 不知不觉的变了
有时候 我怀念以前的我
作的梦 虽然远远的
想像是 一种快乐
拥有了 同时也失去什么
而眷恋 原来会带来软弱
你让我再无力承受
心开始曲折
我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么
我不想舍得 不想懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
能握着手就是 感动的
我愿意 一秒钟放弃全宇宙
挤在只有我们紧靠的小星球
我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么
我多不舍得 多不懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
能握着手就是 感动的
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么
我多不舍得 多不懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
能握着手就是 感动的

无辜

无辜-曹格

也许这是最后的考验当我再度遇见了你
是命运捆绑了我们还是爱情相信了记忆
你的欺骗没有让我掉下眼泪
爱本善变的痛楚并非你的罪
爱是无辜的风筝拉着最在乎的人
情已逝我还在注定一个人流浪
爱是断线的风筝挣脱一开始的梦
黑暗中一步步的坠落红尘
给不起的是你的天真为了他你学会否认
不承认你给过青春曾经爱过我的每一分
我多伤心宁成全你和他的吻
只好对自己的痛楚不负责任
爱是无辜的风筝拉着最在乎的人
情已逝我还在注定一个人流浪
爱是断线的风筝挣脱一开始的梦
黑暗中一步步的坠落红尘
无法挽救的温存
我是残破的风筝
宁愿在遥远的天空
看你转过身决定去实现你和他的承诺
爱是无辜的风筝拉着最在乎的人
情已逝我还在注定一个人流浪
爱是断线的风筝挣脱一开始的梦
黑暗中一步步的坠落红尘
也许这是最后的考验当我再度遇见了你

Stupid NUS module

I cannot bid for SP1201P. which i am so super sad, than i went frantically looking for modules to sub for. And i aim for those tat i dun like, but supposedly easier to score or something.

UNTIL i saw Zhi wei's nick : I hate this country as they only value results, and not the effort placed. No wonder no ones wants to try new things.



and i suddenly realise the truth. How am i different from the other people? Wanting good results. Gg for easier modules. Is it really wat I want? I tried so hard to be different from these mother fucking noobs and i ended up being just like them. Just wanting the easy way out. Its human nature to want it. But its those that are willing to take a step out tat will lead to greatness. I am sorry for myself, bcause for half a year, I have been doing that. and from now on I will constantly remind myself.

1) Value the knowledge gained and NOT the results tat you are gg or want to get.
2) Follow what you think is right and not what others think is right.

AND thank you Zhi wei for reminding me tat being different is not how well your GPA is higher than the rest but the effort u take to understand.

ANd i rest my case

2008.1st week

Today is a very bz day.

Go to school. Cause I am late. SO faster brush teeth and cheong to school already.

Bzbzbzbzbzbz for 2 hours straight, rose nag abit. Settle a lot of stuff.

Than met M****** for lunch. Was fun. Dun wanna elaborate. haha. You know. I purposely follow her back to her work place... hee so I can spend more time, even a little bit more I also dun mind. Guess tats how dumb I am....

than met Sharon for dinner. She damn power la. She just blew her top at me b4 we even meet. Luckily she never fly my kite. Which she almost did. WOMAN=trouble. Had dinner at cine pasta mania. Met lin pei fen or whoever tat is.

I watch the ca fei wang zi. Quite funny. Than i see the gong zhu xiao mei advertisement. Signz. Angela Zhang is such a beauty. Melody=gong zhu=xiao mei. hhaha!!!!!

Just another day......

today is another boring day.
Stayed at home and stone.

New year 2008

Its a new year 2008 and its time to make new year resolutions ahead.

1- to become a better person. plan my time, focus less on entertainment. Do more constructive exercises.

2- Invest more, so as to get more $$.

3- Be nicer to my family.

4- Punch the guy whose name and face i don't know. But i do really want to punch him. Forgive me god but this is one sin i must commit if i get the chance. SO in order to do that i need to go to the gym to work out so as to be as strong as possible to give a nasty punch.

5- Probably the most stupidest but most impt thing to me. Fight for my melody. Haha. :)

Thats it. I shall review my performance monthly to see how well i follow the resolutions.
heehee

I just cut new hair and dyed my hair. Haha.

Let me see on 28th Dec, we went to City Square. we ate alot of nonsense la. I cut my hair, than they go shopping.....

Cannot find melody bedsheet, cause I rem she say she wanted it. Xian look at so many place also cannot find. Sarah ask me: " Y r u even bothering?" . I just shrugged it off. Actually I dun know also.

Hiromi told me say she bought me a magnetic earstuds. So i need to get her something. So I bought a monkey which can shake. Cost RM8.90. Than I found this key chain which is an "Angel's Egg", than I tink buy for angel suan le. than just buy.


回憶的聲音 播在眼裡
像是一首旋律 多麼美麗
那時我很肯定 你是我唯一
眨個眼我們就各分東西

再說我愛你 淚把心佔據
卻有些甜蜜 誰傷心被允許

說過的話語 做過的事情
像歌曲 陪我每個冬季
紀念著我和你相愛這主題

時間早已忘記 分手時候的無情
你給的美好回憶 讓我有懷念的勇氣

This i beautiful........

It is human nature to look to the past, to the road we have traveled, to what has so far defined us...but only by leaving our past behind can we then push forward. Into an unknown tomorrow. Into the dawn of a new future. Into the light of a new beginning.

Super duper sad....

My cap is 3.37 after S/U. So much for studying hard.
Its blow after blow after blow..... Its a big blow to me...

i am super disappointed. Y does it have to be like this?
After I mug so hard. Stupid econs and bio molecules. Such a let down.
B and B-, not even a B+. Shit fuck.

its like the most depressing thing after the breakup.
I start to doubt myself. Do I really suck.
I am not good in anything. Except talking crap. and counting money.

I am seriously shitted to the core.